the spins

she said that the girl took her boyfriend out to a club not too long ago,
did some coke and abandoned him all alone.
she said that she is an evil woman
that she never loved me
and that she used me to make herself feel better about herself

i didnt want to hear things like that about her
i didnt want to see her pretty face bowed over and ugly
snorting white powder into her beautiful
indio nose

it was when she said that that my head began to spin.
i could not stop the spinning..

i looked for someone to erase it all away

but i thanked her still
for the truth.

the truth being such a hard thing to come by these days

i fell asleep with kisses from other girls that night.

what i remember about the party...

it was a lovely night.. the patio was the place to be..
everyone showed..it was a great night..
i was drinking tequilla and beers..smoking borrowed cigarettes and feeling slinky in
my purple dress and hippy jeans and barefoot..
the music was good..
The Boss showed and stayed all night, slept on my sofa
but i missed seeing it, as i passed out hours before he did.
the beautiful girl boss kissed me a million times and told me how beautiful i was a million times
i flirted with everyone
the food was good and at one time there were so many people it was hard to get around the place...
a real breakfast at tiffiny's moment
the guys played the 2600 all night
us girls and the rest of the guys smoked cigs, took shots and talked and laughed.
mikey d gave me a nice fat pipe and i was out of my mind the rest of the night.
i had a great heart to heart with eveyone that mattered..or at least everyone that
i had never had one with before..
i had lots of friends show that i have not seen in a long time.
i have LOTS of beer and liquor left over..so it looks like we'll be having a movie night soon..
it was a great night
i said lots of absurd things..
the most absurd being..
'im too punk to be emo' (??!??)
and 'maybe he'll pull it out of his ass if you ask him nice'
and
'oh yes, i am the best poet alive'
but everyone lauged and it was ok..
and i love you
all of you
every
last one of
you beautiful
beautiful
beings

In Conversation

"I am taking applications
for a new girlfriend.
any takers?
apply within.
tryouts at the party.
or whatever.
payment is me.
what can I say...
it's a charity case"