i bleed

inside me is a hole, a passage a hiding spot
a secret
a ball of twine
i close my eyes.
i close

with
images
of shapes and messages
i carry the words you speak
like wishes
i carry the scent of your lips
on my ragged hips

i bleed.

and you say that bleeding is 'holy'
and you say that...it all seems funny.
we look for answers but are too frightend to ask

i close my eyes
i close

and hear
whispers

i am a cosmic particle in your skin
i have rubbed off on you
i have left my mark..
i have found a home in the curl of your lip..

i bleed.

i bleed essence of
a life that will not create
of a love that will not take

in your indio eyes.

wrack my brain
find my naked legs and rub them free
on the loveseat
in the night..

holy night.

to paint you
to erase you
to please you
to ease you

i want to find you again.
i want the shield you forged to fall
to your feet
i want to find the outline of your small teeth
glowing
in the darkness.